gah, i feel like i've just wasted the best parts of my holidays: the free, November parts.

i should start my studying,

and then there's the board game thing to do for Cikgu Mariam,

which brings me to 'should i take Arts for SPM?'

not to mention English Literature, I've got to get the novel 'Holes' and the drama 'An Inspector Calls' but they don't seem to have it in Malaysia. Then there are six poems to memorize before I start my Lite tuitions.

Oh, I'm dropping Bible Knowledge. It stresses me out. I know that I've actually targetted fifteen subjects (so naive) but I've dropped all of them extras, because I had no idea how active I was going to be in co-curiculum.

Then there's the drama script for next year's inter-school drama competition, which I really really hope to WIN WIN WIN do my best in. It's my last year!! I don't think Form Six students can participate in that. :(

Oh, that reminds me. There's this rumor that Form Six might be separated from High Schools. You know, turned into those pre-uni institutions. If that happens, then forget about me going into Form Six. The only main reason I'm planning to Form Six myself is because I want to get involve with as much high school activities as I can. Otherwise, might as well aim for Uni.

I really, really want to join debate next year, and I'm prepared to drop Public Speaking and Spelling Bee for that. But Cikgu Krishna had already brought me to this year's Public Speaking Competition, expecting me to pick up some pointers and join next year's competition. Cikgu Elizabeth wants me to join the Upper Form Spelling Bee. Both not because I'm talented, or because I have a chance at winning (please lah). It's because NO ONE ELSE WANTS TO DO IT, DARN.

So I guess I"ll have to say bye-bye to Kelab Kebudayaan. T___T Dancing's one of the things that I really, really wanna do, but Kelab Kebudayaan is very, very high maintainence. Practices everyday, no time to breathe, even.

And one of the biggest stress+vomit+headache inducing targets for next year is the Marching Competition. Red Team had gotten second place for four years in a row. FOUR YEARS!!! ARGHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

And PRS Kebangsaan? And the school concert? And my dream of publishing my novel?

My SPM is doomed. (because of me lah.)