you know the totally kembang feeling you get when you feel that someone likes you? and not just anyone, but someone who's actually cute and rather popular?

tell me you know that feeling, because i feel really bad about myself having those feelings. i just wanna know if that's normal... :)

after the awesomest life camp, i've decided not to do any notes and writing down plannings.

like, there were camps that i went to, and after that i did notes on how my life should be different... resolutions...

i pity the ink and paper that i used lah. i so wasted them. :(

so this time, no. no planning. i'm just going to go ahead and do it practically instead of as theory now. read more bible, pray more, fast more, and really live it for eternity. (life)

it's just kinda sad how clueless most Christians can be... how the greatest thing that can ever happen to them is just a sincere prayer away, but they never reach it.

instead, they moan and chase after things that would vanish like vapour...

i don't blame them, they've probably seen Christians that would be better off something else. so Christians who are really living it for God should shine more.

that would not be hard to focus on, since Christians are supposed to be different and separated from the rest of the world anyway (says so in bible)

we live in the world, but we're not of the world.

i'm really regretting cutting my hair now. no, no one pressued me on this. i had always known what the scriptures in Corinthians said about hair. everyone has different opinion, and honestly lah, very ma fan to have long hair. but the scriptures say what they say, so what to do? :)

i am not learned enough to study the matter so deeply yet, so meantime i should just listen to my spiritual leaders. :)

and anyway, it'd be really cool to have long, flowing hair.. i miss my hair very much. sobs.