i vaguely remember being in the car while my dad went to buy something from the supermarket. after some time i panicked, being locked in the car and all. did i cry and hit at the windows? did people come over to see what was the matter? alarmed at the little girl locked in the car? i'm not sure, i don't think so. before long my dad returned. hastily? if so, i did cry and panic. but was that all?

there was another time, my aunt Joyce brought me to this office-looking place. There was a small play corner, and i vaguely remember climbing in, up, under various play contraptions... and i got lost inside. i panicked. then she started calling my name, and i went towards her voice, and made my way out. i think she was comforting me, as i finally climbed out. was i crying? was the play corner really as i remember it now? did we go for some unknown, fast food place after that? i seem to remember grayish wall-tiles with burger adverts stuck on them.

it was at night, as we were in the car. we only just got back from a supermarket, or were we going to one? there were those stationary fun-rides outside the supermarket, and i seem to remember some kind of commotion happening. was it because the supermarket was closing? was it really such a big deal, or was the incident magnified by my child's mind? were there really police lights and flash lights, breaking through the night darkness, as i recall right now? i think i see my mum hurrying out from the supermarket, but the supermarket looks closed. the brown, metal flaps were pulled down at the time, or were they? i think my small siblings were in the car, sleeping, or were they up and about as well, feeling the excitement and anxiousness i felt? what was happening, actually?

uncertain visions of the mind. i think they are subconscious memories of my life's early years. i'm unsure, though; are they just memories of dreams, instead? or did these scenes really happened before? or were they a mixture of both?

i guess i'll never find out.