results so far:

1. English: 88%

(disappointment. T^T for the second time this year, i did not get the highest for the only subject that i have hope in getting highest in. NANA got highest: 96%

of course, i don't really mind. oh, pshaw, SERIOUSLY i don't =='' i only want the best subject award at the end of the year :P who doesn't like cash, fame and certificates?

i had fun faking laments about this during class, and tormenting Chang Sin Fung because of his wondrous performance (as usual, he's a boy-wonder). Heck, his English got higher marks than i did. it was funny how he and Fiona tried to cheer me up. "...you still got A mah... you only careless mah... aiya, only test mah... aiya, test not real proof of your talents mah..." XD)

2. Bahasa Melayu: 70%

(a lot of people did not get credit for this, and frankly speaking i was lucky- no, make that BLESSED, to get this high score. you know why? because this saves my face. T__T

i've heard teachers saying that "Carmelia is really a language oriented student." which justifies my horribly dig-into-the-ground low results for the science/math subjects. so i NEED to get good grades for at least the three language subjects, otherwise no more 'language-oriented' excuse for me to hide behind.)

3. Math 57%

(looks okay to you? at least credit lah, right? :D

Daphne got 100% though. GAH!! T___T how did she DO IT??)

4. Additional Math: 20%

(ahh... the teacher did not look very happy as she single-handedly handed me my work of art. it looked good on the first page, a lot of ticks. but never judge an exam paper by its first page. T____T

i did not know what i was doing. Keele was staring at one of my long, tedious answers and asked me what 'that' was.

"my working to the question."

he who rarely laughs out loud, burst out laughing out loud.)

5. Chemistry: 14%

(ahhh... this was the subject that i wanted to drop. i almost managed to get away with it, but then they discovered me and placed me back into the chemical world by telling me to 'keep half of your sky open'

which means if i drop chemistry, i'll totally lose options to further studies in medical sciences. i don't regret NOT dropping it. we went for a talk on biotechnology, and well, it's rather interesting.

although i don't suppose i'll give up art or literature to study even more chemical equations...)

a lot of people seemed troubled recently, and i guess it's about the results... i won't be able to understand them. i guess my teachers and my parents don't put that much pressure on me.

they don't need to, actually. for the same reason i stuffed myself into the freaking scientific science stream: i'm 'kia-su' well,

i got to go. time limit on my online time. i was supposed to google other things but i ended up on my blog. i guess i just needed a place with the right to say whatever i want. here, it's my turf. my blog, my place. i feel so at home here.